I feel a bit like one of my cats when they have hurt themselves and hide away in a corner. Why the whole woe is me attitude you might ask?
Well Friday found me eagerly opening an e-mail from my editor for Scandinavian Scandal, only to come crashing down to earth with a mighty bump. She really liked the premise of the story but was unable to take the manuscript further. There followed some feedback as to why, which left me rather confused, but the upshot of it was thanks, but no thanks.
Now this is by no means the first rejection I have had and I am sure it won't be the last, but for some reason this one hurt the most. I really had high hopes for this manuscript and maybe that's why this has hit me so hard. A lesson in humility for me perhaps. Just because I think it's some of the best work I have ever done, doesn't mean an editor is going to agree with me!
Having said all that she has kindly offered to send me specific examples of where she feels I need to improve in the manuscript and I am extremely grateful for this opportunity for feedback. I will set it aside for a few weeks and then look at it all again with fresh eyes and hopefully everything will be clearer, I will work on it some more and re-submit.
That's the rational side of my brain talking. The hormonal, emotional side of my brain has cried lots and has taken a huge knock to my writing confidence, but I will get over it...
So for now, I will indulge in chocolate and reading and just taking it easy for a bit. Some day I will look back on this and laugh I am sure!
And hey it's all part of the process right?